Category: Reflections
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August 8, 2022
It’s another Monday morning and I’m going in for labs and fluids. I’m feeling very emotional every day and crying at least once a day about my fate, although it is unknown. It amazes me how much my life changed overnight with this diagnosis. Now, I sometimes feel like every day is just a waiting…
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August 7, 2022
Today is a good day I have experienced 2 1/2 days where I felt like nothing was wrong with me. Gone was the weakness, the struggle to eat, the pains, and the increased heart rate. And in its place there was the old me! After four months I’ve almost forgotten what it’s like to be…
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August 6, 2022
Reaching across the years I reconnected with my dear friend, Becca, who lives in Arizona. You might have friends like this.. people who you connect with so strongly that even if you don’t see each other for a decade, you can pick right back any tIme. that’s Becca. Becca and I first met as pregnant…
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August 5, 2022
I am so channeling my late mother, Joan, right now. She died at age 75 after fighting Multiple myeloma for 5 years. Throughout her fight, she never lost her cheery disposition with everyone . She continued to make people feel good about themselves, something she did her whole life. Now that my life has slowed…
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August 3, 2022
Today is Wednesday and I had the chemo pack removed. Without one of the cancer fighting agents, I skipped most of the symptoms that effect eating like metallic taste etc. All in all, not a bad time yet. Jake and Krista left a few days ago and Hans and I have established a nice rhythm…
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July 12, 2022
Hair today…gone tomorrow Being the vain creature that I can be, one of the contemplative things I dealt with early on was going bald. Ironically, even before my diagnosis, I had been speaking to Hans about when I would be “old enough” to go gray, so the thought of cutting my hair short or losing…
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July 7, 2022
It’s been a very long time since I have added to my story. Life has just been one blur getting through one day at a time for so long that I don’t remember being the active person that I was. The chemo seems to be working and I do get more accomplished with less pain…
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June 15, 2022
Cancer Center. Having not eaten for several weeks and pretty much unable to drink without pain, we met with Dr. Barry to see if surgery could help relieve my symptoms and help me gain some strength back. He sent us over to Dr. Doss who is willing to do the surgery but we decided to…
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May 22, 2022
So today was my 63rd birthday and it was very different one than I would have predicted a year ago. I find myself being very grateful for all the support I have from friends and family and I’m touched by the extra efforts that my sons and their wives/girlfriends go through to make sure that…
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May 16, 2022
We are at Largo Medical Center to get a port installed for my future Chemo. The surgeon did an excellent job and I am lucky not to have any residual pain or problems with the port. My most vivid memory of the event is that the the surgeon’s nurse was amazing at keeping Hans and…
Dying with Debra 