Dying with Debra

Happy would be 89th birthday Mommy. As  i was watching the puppies playing today, I reflected on how happy I was to have them here. With  Hans’ help, they are very little trouble and bring lots of joy. Baxter seems to enjoy them as well and they love him. I decided to write the following…

I was overconfident this morning and went with my sister to the farmers market. It was very distressing to discover that  I could only go about a half a block without having to sit down. When I got home, Hans gave me a half a dose of the RSO and I was able to relax…

Since beginning this chemo session, I have been a proverbial puddle of tears.  I’m not sure if it’s the symptoms, emotional impact of  facing a reduced life span (12-36 months), or the drugs..most probably a combination of those things. So, I will return to inspiring quotes to try to move forward with a few less…

I just realized I left you with an unanswered burning question yesterday. Did cuddling with the foster pups help me feel better? The answer is an unequivocal yes. I naturally absorb the love of those puppies and the positive energy that they emit.   They are always wagging, licking and displaying the unconditional love that make…

Last night, I sent over the reports from my chemo doctor to Dr Becky and Tom. .  To Hans  and me there seemed to be nothing new but I received this text.. How are you and Hans?  I know you two must be heartbroken and our hearts break along with you. I can’t find the…

The pain is back. It started last night and has continued into the morning.  I am fairly confident that we solved the “ mystery of the source of the pain,” this morning when we looked at the bagel thins that Hans had bought. Instead of the tried and trusted plain bagels that I cherish, Hans…

This morning my friend, Trish, who is a dog trainer, came over to meet Baxter and evaluate whether he will be a good service dog for me.  We all agreed that he has the right temperament and should respond to the training well, so I have now ordered a service vest and patches for him.…

Krista and her family invited Hans and I out to dinner and then to their home for dessert.  My oldest son, Jake, has dated Krista since he was 16 years old and he is now 34, so the Reed family is our family too and vice a versa.  It was great to spend time with…

Today was a great day and a great evening. I woke up just in time to greet son, Brenden and granddaughter Abby. They are still without power and were very happy to be able to bathe and be fed. I had enough energy to help Brenden help me with stacking the palm leaves and coconuts…

Hurricane Ian has come and gone. We were very fortunate that it went South to Naples and to Sanabel island. We lost the canopy on our Boat Lift and had quite a lot of yard work to pick up, but other than that we weathered the storm✔️ It is heartbreaking to see the devastation and…