Category: Reflections
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November 1, 2022
Hard to believe it’s already. November. Time is really flying. This morning, when I showed up for my appointment at Florida cancer labs, one of the gals upfront made my day. “Miss Starr“ she said, “you always look so pretty. “Thank you,” I said “no I mean it you just are such a pretty woman“.…
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October 31, 2022
I am pleased to report that my stomach dealt with whatever gas it needed to while I was sleeping and I feel much better today. I was going over what I’ve eaten and the only thing I think that might’ve let me in with those sweet potato fries. At any rate, I am unlikely to…
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October 30,2022
Last night, a Facebook post appeared on my feed announcing Susan ‘s death. It was beautifully written and most of the replies were heartfelt and sweet. One of them, however, from a woman who I knew quite well in high school stunned me. She wrote “did she suffer?” I find that so incredibly offensive and…
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October 29, 2022
Tears are streaming down my face, (hopefully washing away the persistent glitter remaining from my costume makeup last night). I received a text today that forces me to face the reality of fighting cancer. Despite a cheerful mantra of One Day at a Time, sometimes I visit various potential futures and it can be quite…
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October 28, 2022
I called the cancer center today and I am going to meet with the doctor on Tuesday, get labs and get fluids. I’ll also find out more about neuropathy. My concern is that it will get worse and worse the more of this cancer drug we use, but I’m not sure that that’s the case.…
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October 27, 2022
So I’m experiencing another good day. Yesterday I got by with just two extra strength Tylenols and a half a gummy. So far today, I’ve just taken two extra strength Tylenols . Hans was delighted that I made us omelettes for breakfast, cleaned the kitchen, vacuumed, mopped, and still had enough energy to design some…
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October 26, 2022
I am in the garden with Baxter, Roxy, Penelope, and Paddington. It is in the high 70s, breezy in the shade of the umbrella and it feels heavenly to sit here. I woke up this morning, feeling considerably better and recommitted to eating and drinking the amounts that I am supposed to. It’s crazy that…
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October 25, 2022
I drove myself to get some fluids this morning I continue to feel weak, but fortunately don’t have any pain. The thrush has retreated so that’s good news. I am scheduled for the third chemo treatment next Tuesday. Dr Berry said that I can skip it so I can be in top form for…
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October 24, 2022
I slept well but woke up feeling extremely weak again. , If I walk from one room to another, I have to sit down and rest and let my heart rate and breathing return to normal. It sucks so, I decided two things I also just had most of a black bean burger and have…
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October 22, 2022
Six months ago today, I was diagnosed with stage four cancer. The changes that this diagnosis brought to my life have been profound. All of our journeys are unknown from day-to-day and the knowledge that I still have a future keeps me going. What the future will look like, however it is unknown to…
Dying with Debra 