So last night’s journal entry ended on a high note. (Pun intended) If you recall, I had decided on giving Oxy a shot at becoming my drug of choice. Oxy was working and I had been pain free for a good amount of hours. By the time I posted at around 5 pm. , Oxy was a strong contender.

Well, I’ve got to say “Oxy you blew it”. (As did I) I had taken my 2nd dose of Oxy and was in bed reading when Hans enters the scene and puts a bowl down on my bedside table Within mere seconds, the smell of macaroni and cheese assaults my nostrils. Nausea takes over my body and Hans appears with a wastebasket just in time.

The oxy experiment is hereby called off

Frankly, of all the nasty side effects I am willing to accept (and I think I’ve been patient here) I am NOT willing to accept regular puking. My conviction is influenced by my biology. Hans will confirm that I am not a Puker. He says, as far as puking goes, “Deb, you’re a newbie”. In case you are unfamiliar with this phenomenon, Non-puckers are those of us who didn’t puke a lot growing up and have puked less than 10 times in our lives. (Factoring in one’s age of course). My status as a non-puker has served me well in the past, but it now appears to be a handicap. Hans teases that I have no puking skills and have developed no puking techniques. I’m a bit jealous of all you pukers…just a bit.

Puking aside.

I’m happy to say that today I experienced a vast improvement in my quality of life. The time between stretched blissfully throughout my day. The credit goes to the newest contender in the search for Debra’s Drug of Choice. I’m talking about you, RSO.

I took a smudge of the wax RSO …pin head sized which Hans presented to me on a spoonful of creamy peanut butter (the fat helps with quick and effective absorption). Remember, this is the drug that is potentially psychotropic so it’s super important to get the right dose.

The pain was shoved aside while I went to get my acrylic nails off. I do love the look of long nails but it is SO nice to feel my fingertips again. Next stop, Bealles for Hans’ socks, Panera Bread (grilledcheese and chicken noodle soup) Trulieve (more RSO) and finally sunflowers at Publix.

I need to rest!

I was shaky and slow, weak on my feet but I was out there. Me and my rose colored rollerator. (Aka walker).

My hope is to discover the magic formula that will fuel more active days like today. With Tylenol, pot derivatives and stool softeners at my ready, I continue my quest. I’ve taken Tylenol and a hybrid gummy this afternoon to combat the gurgles that have returned with a vengeance. Waiting for some results. Obviously, more experimenting is required.

Over the past 2 weeks, I have had some success pushing down pain but the cost was high…being confined to bed all day. Sooner or later, there will come a time when that is the best I can do. I just want it to be later.