Another day without pain… hallelujah! Hans and I are starting the day watching the girls while Annelise goes to the urgent care for her eyes, which have both become swollen. (Turns out it’s a bacterial infection). Meanwhile, I felt strong enough to get the house precleaned for our housekeeper. Sounds funny, but I find that you really need to straighten up to get the maximum result 🙂

For some reason, could’ve been the pizza that I ate right before going to bed, I had trouble falling asleep and staying asleep. My mind wandered  to my chemo appointment tomorrow. I think I’ve decided to go ahead and get the treatment and just get it over with. Then we can do the scans and go from there. 

I still find myself getting incredibly anxious thoughts about the scans…as I’m sure I’ve said before and will continue to say sometimes it’s easier not to know what’s coming around the bend. Blissful ignorance is underrated. Just writing about this makes me tear up  and my heart race. There’s a particular tightening in my chest when I start to think about what kind of bad news I could get. Anyway, I am going to blow my nose, wipe my tears and go play with the girls and the kittens so I can channel some positive energy.

We ended up having a lovely time at the outlet mall together and Scarlett and Autumn got new outfits for next summer which they can wear for the rest of the week while they’re here 🙂 I also bought a bundle of winter clothes on Facebook Marketplace which I had mailed to their address.  It will be waiting for them when they get home.  Having raised three boys, I am finding buying little girl clothes fun and kind of addicting!