I’m back at the Cancer Center with a warm blanket on my lap and a pillow behind my back. I am high as a kite! 🙂 I woke up feeling pretty miserable and I was crying a lot. Poor Hans wanted  to help but had no real power to do so.  He said he feels so helpless. I assured him that sympathy and tenderness is appreciated if not helpful lol. 

Anyway, I decided I would take some tincture and I took slightly more than I usually do. Happily, the pain went away and some energy returned but I am keenly aware of being high. It’s not the usual mellow 🐝 buzz. I feel jittery and unfocused. Better than pain though. 

Oh..I forgot to tell you., Hans, who  I have previously noted is not a fan of musical theater, was actually composing and  singing  silly songs with me on the way to Chemo today.  I think he realized how much it helps me to be distracted from feeling shitty.   Feel Shitty? Try Being Silly 🙃 

For  instance, in the spirit of distraction, I picture this scene from my sure to be a hit creation….Colon Cancer: The musical. 

My character appears on stage dressed like Mr. Banks, wearing a derby hat and a black suit. A myriad of  supporting characters are used to mimic the dancing during the singing of “Let’s go fly a Kite” from the movie Mary Poppins. Trust me , it’ll be hysterical. Go watch the scene online and you’ll understand. 

We sing and dance. 

’m home. In bed. In my jammies. I stumbled up here after Hans picked me up and crashed for about an hour and a half. Starting to feel more human but today is going to be an in-bed day.