Back to the buzz.   Embrace the buzz 

The last five days before this chemo, I felt strong and  happy that I wasn’t taking any drugs to help me through the day, with the exception of two extra strength Tylenol. Ironic that I have a cabinet full of medical marijuana and all I want to do is be me without drugs.

That is not gonna happen this week! I realized this morning when I woke up feeling achy and just generally shitty that NOW IS the time for drugs. . I have to reconcile myself to the fact that some days I’ll be able to enjoy the day without drugs and other days I will only enjoy the day with drugs.  

I had a few lovely hours outside with the puppies. The weather is beautiful and the RSO that I ingested an hour ago has put me in a mellow mood. I work on photography and editing while I am still in my “Kumbaya bubble. “

A few hours later…Now the  buzz has turned into fatigue. I’ll just have to go with it and rest, content with getting nothing done    ✔️ 

As I read back today’s entry, I realize that my hesitance to use drugs comes from the fact that when I do use drugs, I lose an element of control. That’s what getting sick or getting old or for that matter getting drunk does… Takes away an element of your control. It’s something that can take some getting used to for me.  Does that make sense?  

It’s Back😞😢😭

Oral thrush — also called oral candidiasis (kan-dih-DIE-uh-sis) — is a condition in which the fungus Candida albicans accumulates on the lining of MY mouth. Candida is a normal organism in my mouth, but because I have a compromised immune system, it overgrows during chemo treatment when I’m at my weakest….

and cause symptoms…..yellow tongue, the feeling like I have a clay lining in my mouth, a loss of taste… You get the idea!

Last cycle, I was able to keep the insidious thrush at bay after I got the magic shot that beefs up my white blood cells. It’s called Ziextenzo. It is a man-made form of granulocyte colony, stimulating factor G – CFSF.   It stimulates the growth of a type of white blood cell that is important in my bodies. Fight against infection.  

This drug can cause tremendous bone pain as it repairs bone marrow. luckily, someone discovered that if you take Claritin the day before, and for five days after, the pain is eliminated or reduced greatly.

I do have some anti thrush medicine on hand.  We have rotated through four or five different medication’s, trying to find one that will keep the thrush away for good but so far no luck.

I’m going to try to wait a day before taking meds to see if the shot tomorrow will be enough to kick thrush butt.

This is my “fashionable” fanny pack with my Chemo box in it. I wear it for three days for slow release for a total of 46 hours as it delivers 1.78 mL an hour. 

I’ll be having it removed at 3:30 today. Won’t miss the Annoying sounds it makes as it pumps out what is both a poison and a cure.