Yesterday was a lot of fun going shopping (for the third day in a row.) 

My sister came along and the three of us had a nice time. It felt good to get clothes that fit me in a new style that I am developing now that I have short gray hair. The 22 pounds that I lost took me from a size 6 to a size 4 and without sounding vain, I will tell you that clothes look good on me. After all, I am  built like  a hanger with boobs:-)

Unfortunately, the dinner did me in again. I spent the last part of the night in  pain.  I was able to fall asleep but that dinner wasn’t done with me yet. I woke me up at 6 AM and again at 9:30 am knowing that there wasn’t much to look forward to today.  I went back to sleep and didn’t wake up till 3 PM. I took my medical marijuana and I am able to function, although I am very weak. Consequently, the day will be spent poolside or on my float.

As I recover,I’m  reading “Living Beyond Limits,” by David Spiegel MD. His book is based on 15 years of groundbreaking research and is helping me to face the diagnosis head on … The back cover of his book describes it as a book to deal with the fear of dying, building sustain networks of support, review and re-order life priorities,etc. . I’m only halfway through so I’ll let you know how it goes and if it helps.

Oh I just thought of another helpful hint… Make sure you have a friend like Bunny who can make you a lunch like this

Excerpt from “Living Beyond Limits”

I can relate to. 

I honestly feel that until you’ve had a life-shortening illness, you will be unable to understand how scary it is. I approached a woman at the Florida Cancer Center to complement her on her pretty gray hair and we struck up a conversation that has turned into a friendship. Julia has been going through treatment for nonspecific Hodgkin’s lymphphoma which  is a very rare cancer. Apparently, chemo has done as much as it can and now she’s waiting for her pet scan to find out what her likely future will entail. Coincidentally, I am going the very next day for my laparoscopy for the same reason. Her text today was, “I’m scared, I just don’t know that I can go through much more…fingers crossed for both of us.”