How do Hans snd I decide the best path forward? 

I must admit I don’t have a lot of experience weighing options and making long-term plans. My favorite lane is the fast lane where things get done quickly. However, the reality of the situation is that we are playing the longest game we can. Today, Dr. Dineen  convinced us of the value of the laparoscopic surgery on the 8th of September. . This will allow him to see the amount of cancer in the peritoneal or stomach lining as well as take a biopsy. Once we’ve done that, we will go over the options and risk/rewards of doing surgery versus chemo. In the meantime, I still am off chemo until the 13th. The most emotional part of the day was probably getting statistics on survival rates which show about a 3 to 3 1/2 year survival rate. There is only a 10% chance after the surgery that someone will live cancer free. Hans, of course, is holding onto that Hope.  Hope is free so I don’t blame him and I will strive to be in that 10% 

My job now is to build my strength and to make the most of the days that I have. I think the rest of the day will be spent crying off and on but hopefully I can get my shit together and fight.